So I Guess I'm A Bad Mom

At least that is how Belle makes me feel most days. Today we took Easton to the doctor because he has had a low grade fever and been completely fussy. I felt it was more than just the monster teeth coming in. Well I was right a bad virus is kicking his rear...There's some sores in his mouth :-( So on to belle. At the doctors office she had a complete meltdown. During intake she was screaming and laying on the floor. She refused to listen to me. Nothing was working...I tried her strikes...I tried bargining I tried everything. Finally the nurse bent down and sternly talked to her. I was so embarrassed. I'm contantly embarrased by her behavior. Nothing I do works. I know she's constantly tired from lack of sleep. I know that being told no constantly with food is frustrating. I try to make her feel special. I try to treat her like any other child. Making her fun food that she can eat. I just feel like I'm at my wits end. I don't want to take belle anywhere anymore. I feel like we can't leave the house because some other mother is going to judge. Judge me for not being able to control my child. Feel sorry for Belle because her mother can't properly take care of her and give her boundries. Days like today make me want to hide in a hole until it's all over.

Onto the exciting part of the day. Jamison went to Kindergarten orientation today. He got to meet his teachers and get a tour of the school. He was so excited when he got into the car. He told me all about his day. How he got to take a school bus into town and the craft they made and all the new friends he made. My baby boy is growing up.I can't believe I actually have a kid in elementary school. I guess now it's time to become a PTA mom ;-)